Am I Not Pretty Enough?

Today's Been Sort Of Sad...

I Woke up to my phone's alarm, blasting Flightless Bird American Mouth. Which in fact is one of my favorite songs. It was only 7:30 in the morning, and right when i heard that alarm i knew..SHOW CHOIR. Uhhg. Thats the word for our pathetic attempt at a dance group. So i got ready, and left to go to Bartlett High School. Even though some people dont, I love that school. I love my friends, and i love the warmth, and i dont quite mind the "learning" if learning is what you call harrassing teachers until they quit. We danced in the caf. But today i didnt like going to show choir, Becuase i knew our competion is coming up in 13 days. For one, WE SUCK, number two getting close only makes me think about see-ing my ex best friend Ila, who decided she didint wanna be my friend anymore about 4 months again. I still love her. Shes been my friend since we were in our mums tummy's.

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I called Ila, When i got back from show choir. Shes coming over at 1:00 And im incedibly scared.

I havent seen her in forever, and i havent the slightest to what to say..do i hug her like always? Do i invite her to my room? I mean i know shes not a damn zombie but i dont know how to approach this situation. I know for sure well be talking about what i did wrong and ill probably end up crying like the girl that i am. WRITE MORE LATER..

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Ila Just left. It was a short day. To Short than a Saturday shoud be allowed to be. It seems as though everything will be slipping back into normal pretty soon. I need to make a lot of changes with myself.

See you tomorrow

-Linds-